Ugh

Lousy weekend. What a difference compaired to the weekend before where it was so fun..this one was totally in reverse.

I really hate feeling this way. Maybe the name of the blog should be grumpy girl. It just seems like I am more grumpy lately than anything. Feel like a whinier, a complainer and a cry baby.

It just feels that certain people expect too much of me...like everything I do is wrong.... Or I dont do enough of something - but what about the times I go above & beyond? So i have a lazy time...so what. Its not like things dont get done. Im tired of feeling like I have to be perfect...like I always have to watch what I say and panic that someone is going to be mad at me if I didnt do something. Thats no way to live and yet its my life lately. I need to learn how to be more assertive and stick up for myself.

Feeling very lost & confused again and its such an awful feeling.