What a piggie!

ok just sitting here eating my lunch quick since i have to leave for the doctors... had a nice salad from market basket that i picked up last night...just added some string cheese to it & a couple of pieces of pepperoni to give it more substance...

it should have been good enough.

it wasnt.

for the 3rd day in a row the vending machine has called me to it, and has insisted that i buy the peanut m&ms in the pretty yellow bag. and hey why not - in the south beach diet book, they are not bad on the glycemic index (yes had to check) but the downfall is, im not eating them as they should be eaten. there is no savoring of the flavor, no joy in the delicious little treats.... just call me homer simpson cuz i feel like im eating them like he would donuts. well, it is a slight exaggeration (notice the word "slight") but not only am i now addicted to them, which wouldnt be too bad if it wasnt for all the other crap i eat when i get home, but now im just devouring them & not fully enjoying the experience of being sinful. what the heck is wrong with me? is it the cold weather mentality - got to stock up the food in my cheeks so i dont starve over the winter or what? and didnt i just put on here how much you would have to work out to burn off one of these things???????

no willpower what so ever. oh well. there's always tomorrow to be better. i do deserve some brownie points for the day though. instead of lounging in bed for 20 minutes more, i took those 20 minutes & walked up & down the hallway for a little brisk walking. good start since this body hasnt been doing much movement lately. : )