Uncle Mario ~

How much more can my Father's family handle? We were just told Uncle Mario health is declining.

About a week and 1/2 ago my Mother told me that he had to have emergency surgery. He was having a problem, went in for a colonoscopy. The couldnt get the tube inserted & had to do emergency surgery. What they found was a very large tumor. He just had a colonoscopy about a year ago too & there wasnt any signs of anything wrong. Needless to say, they had to remove everything. What makes recovery hard for him is the leukemia he has been fighting for quite a few years now. His resistance is low. The colon cancer is spreading. Unfortunately its spreading at a very rapid rate.

My Mother just told me that my Dad is not handling this well. He is very close to this brother. Its so sad. We just went to Uncle Mario's funeral in December, also my dad's brother. Why is it every couple of months someone is passing away? The toll it must be taking on my poor Dad. I will have to make sure to call him this week. Have been meaning to anyways & now with this, I just feel so bad for him. Plus hearing all this makes me worry about his health even more too.

Right now I am also dealing with guilt and am very upset at myself. When first hearing of this I wanted to send Uncle Mario a thinking of you card.. Dont know if its because I was selfishly lost in my own world, with my own problems, or if at the time I assumed he would be going home & the card could be mailed there.. but I never mailed out anything. I havent even gotten one. It totally escaped my brain to get one :( How selfish! How so self absorbed I've been! And this isnt the first time thinking about myself has caused me to not put someone else first. What the hell is wrong with me???? Is it too late to send a basket of flowers? He's not even awake. How will he know his niece is thinking of him?

At Uncle Mikey's funeral & then a month later at my cousin's baby's christening, he looked for me & was like " OH! There she is!" How sweet is that? And I cant even remember to send him a card.