Moody Blues....
This whole weekend was one big moody one for me. Don't know why, but it was.. Not too much about important stuff, but how I feel about myself.
Jeff went away for the weekend, so I tried to make plans with the kids... they were busy.. but then I figured, better that way because there's some cleaning that needs to be done before we go away, and also the dreaded time of trying on last years shorts.
Well, I've been feeling pretty slim & trim losing about 5 lbs & feeling really great, especially after that time of the month... well worked late Friday so just picked up something from the 99s to eat, so I wouldnt have the hassle of cooking & cleaning. Well after eating that I felt like I gained about 10lbs & have been feeling like that every since! Even took Midol in hopes some of the bloat would ease up. Maybe not guzzling down enough water? I really hate this feeling.. .when i feel this way, I dont want to work out or watch what I eat... why bother - already fat is the attitude.. And this is such the wrong attitude to have.. and trying really hard to not let these negative thoughts linger & take over the accomplishment of losing 5lbs.
It just seems like evertime that time of the month is over, Im back on the pill, not even a full week & I go right back to feeling like the Pillsbury dough boy... oh yes, and not to mention my shorts dont really fit either. They were kind of snug all in the tummy :( Deep down, I knew this would happen because they just fit last year in Florida... and im the same weight, so nothing was going to change. Bought 2 new shorts over the weekend, but just dreading putting anything short on my body.
Sorry to be such a mope, but when you try really hard & you just feel like a big ball... its hard to stay positive. I didnt work out this morning like I should have. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get right back into the groove & lose this moodiness.
For the last year & 1/2, I've gone back & forth about getting off the pill... all it does it make me feel bloated all the time.... and I believe is the sole reason I can not lose this extra weight very easy... and why my boops are extremely enormous. When I get bloated, thats where I'll feel it the most.... thats not normal! There are some benefits to the pill... like not having such heavy time of the months that you wonder if you'll need a transfusion (which is why i had to go on it in the first place) And if were going to go on vaca, you could play with them if you had to, to make sure you vaca went uninterrupted by your friend...... but everything else just sucks. Wondering if maybe after Florida about taking a break... I'll still pick it up & everything & keep it on hand, but I think my body needs to shrink & its not going to while on this stupid thing.... how do other people on the pill stay slim???? I know i've slacked in the eating right & working out department - but still... this is just too awful to feel this way on a daily basis!
Ok enough of the pity party... maybe its just a combination of working too hard lately... just not motivated to do anything...so the vacation is going to be much needed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jeff went away for the weekend, so I tried to make plans with the kids... they were busy.. but then I figured, better that way because there's some cleaning that needs to be done before we go away, and also the dreaded time of trying on last years shorts.
Well, I've been feeling pretty slim & trim losing about 5 lbs & feeling really great, especially after that time of the month... well worked late Friday so just picked up something from the 99s to eat, so I wouldnt have the hassle of cooking & cleaning. Well after eating that I felt like I gained about 10lbs & have been feeling like that every since! Even took Midol in hopes some of the bloat would ease up. Maybe not guzzling down enough water? I really hate this feeling.. .when i feel this way, I dont want to work out or watch what I eat... why bother - already fat is the attitude.. And this is such the wrong attitude to have.. and trying really hard to not let these negative thoughts linger & take over the accomplishment of losing 5lbs.
It just seems like evertime that time of the month is over, Im back on the pill, not even a full week & I go right back to feeling like the Pillsbury dough boy... oh yes, and not to mention my shorts dont really fit either. They were kind of snug all in the tummy :( Deep down, I knew this would happen because they just fit last year in Florida... and im the same weight, so nothing was going to change. Bought 2 new shorts over the weekend, but just dreading putting anything short on my body.
Sorry to be such a mope, but when you try really hard & you just feel like a big ball... its hard to stay positive. I didnt work out this morning like I should have. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get right back into the groove & lose this moodiness.
For the last year & 1/2, I've gone back & forth about getting off the pill... all it does it make me feel bloated all the time.... and I believe is the sole reason I can not lose this extra weight very easy... and why my boops are extremely enormous. When I get bloated, thats where I'll feel it the most.... thats not normal! There are some benefits to the pill... like not having such heavy time of the months that you wonder if you'll need a transfusion (which is why i had to go on it in the first place) And if were going to go on vaca, you could play with them if you had to, to make sure you vaca went uninterrupted by your friend...... but everything else just sucks. Wondering if maybe after Florida about taking a break... I'll still pick it up & everything & keep it on hand, but I think my body needs to shrink & its not going to while on this stupid thing.... how do other people on the pill stay slim???? I know i've slacked in the eating right & working out department - but still... this is just too awful to feel this way on a daily basis!
Ok enough of the pity party... maybe its just a combination of working too hard lately... just not motivated to do anything...so the vacation is going to be much needed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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